You often hear folks say that they have a Love-Hate-Relationship with something or someone? You know what I’m talking about. Well, all of my life I have never felt the “Love-part” when it came to jockstraps. Only hate and my hatred runs so deep that I find it difficult to refer to them by their Christian name of Athletic Supporter.
My hatred started with confusion in the 3rd grade
when we were required to wear them to play organized baseball. My Mom had to take me to the store to get one
and I didn’t really know what we had gone to pick up. She called it an athletic supporter so I was
expecting something cool like a new baseball glove or a hat or something. I had never heard of an athletic supporter and
up until that point in my life “jock strap” was just a derogatory phrase we
used when we needed something bad to call someone. It was akin to calling somebody a butt-wipe. Just a couple of words that, together,
sounded funny and were used to describe somebody you didn’t like.
We approached a dowdy sales lady who was folding scarves and
Mother asked her if they carried athletic supporters. The lady looked surprised and smiled down at
me and said “Now who would be needing that?
Is this your son? Is it for
him? How cute. I don’t think they come that small but I’ll
check with Mr. Mosley” and with that she waddled off. I was really confused now and accustomed to
taking the smallest size of everything but I was sensitive to people calling me
small. It was true that I was
embarrassingly short and hated being reminded of the fact. It had been the cause of many fights in my
short life and I was toying with the idea of punching that lady out.
Mrs. Dowdy returned with Mr. Mosley who was a gangly man
dressed in brown rumpled slacks, a wrinkled, soup-stained striped shirt and a crooked
necktie. He had used one of those skinny
half-knots guaranteed to crook a tie that was favored by those who couldn’t master
the Windsor Knot. I mean, I was just a
third grader, but I knew how to tie a Windsor Knot and this was the father of
one of my classmates, Howie, who I considered a semi-butt-wipe. By his appearance and his offspring I took Mr.
Mosley as someone who had, no doubt, been called “butt-wipe” many times in his
life, but what did I know? He looked
down at me and laughed saying “What does this little feller need a jockstrap
for”?
Now bear in mind that as far as I knew a “jockstrap” was just a derogatory name and he had also called me little. He considered me a little-jockstrap and he had said it out loud. That took me right to the boiling point and I was figuring that I could put him down quickly by punching him squarely in his nuts which happened to be at the perfect height for me to administer a kill shot. With him down I would turn on the “Dowdy Scarf Lady” who was snickering at me and the whole situation. Neither one had any idea who they were messing with. Luckily for both of them Mother knew and when I tensed and clenched my fists she put her hand firmly on my shoulder to hold me back. Then Mr. Ass-wipe said, “Actually we do have one just his size” and with that he disappeared into the back room which saved him from a serious beating.
When he returned, he had this small flat box with an “Ace”
logo and a photo of the contents. Since
I was expecting a glove or a hat this added to my confusion. Mr. Butt-wipe took it out of the box and held
it up for all to see before handing it to me.
Working without any clues my best guess was that it was either supposed
to go around my waist or over my head. Head
gear, most likely, a nose guard perhaps, but which way was it worn and for what
purpose? I had never seen a baseball
player with one on his head but thought it possible that it attached to the
inside of a hat, but why? By
the grace of God, I hesitated before pulling it over my head and when Mr.
Mosley told me to just pull it on over my jeans that sort of answered the
question about where it was worn. It was
obvious that this thing was going to be too big, but Mother nodded at me
signifying that I should put it on so I went into a dressing room and pondered
which way it was worn. Guard to the
front or guard to the back? My life was
so complicated.
Finally, I stepped out on the salesfloor to the accompaniment of much snickering. We had drawn the attention of other shoppers who were now smiling at me as well. Mr. Mosley laughed out loud. Picture a tiny third grader with a big floppy jockstrap hanging loosely over his jeans. At least I had gotten it on with the “guard” facing forward. I mean, there were no instructions on the box and I really didn’t know. I had donned it with a 50/50 chance of success and had just gotten lucky.
I was equal parts humiliated and furious. If Mother hadn’t stopped me, I would have committed
some horrific and unlawful violent act. Outside
the dressing room the Muzak droned on mingling with the chatter of shoppers as
well as with the chuckles of Mr. Butt-wipe and Dowdy Scarf Lady. I was so lost in pondering homicide while
pulling the XXX-Small on over my underwear that I failed to note that the fit
was perfect.
I had a great need to express how I had been made to feel but
if I talked in a disrespectful manner to an adult my mother would have grounded
me for a week and there was a good chance that I would experience the sting of
my Dad’s belt. Disrespecting your elders
was a felony in our family.
I had to do something to let them know how I felt, and
it was Mother’s Navy Bean Soup that gave me my voice for expression and allowed
me to force out what may have been the loudest fart that the world had ever
heard. It was so loud, in fact, that I
was shocked. As a grade school boy I knew
loud farts and this one did my screaming for me. The chatter and laughter from outside the
dressing room immediately ceased leaving only the numbing drone of the
Muzak. Exiting the dressing room I
tossed the jockstrap to the scowling but silent Mrs. Dowdy and kept walking
towards the door. She made a point of
not catching it but was not agile enough to get out of its way and it was a
perfect headshot. I heard Mother say “Well,
I guess we’ll have to take that one”.
We didn’t speak on the way home but at least I wasn’t grounded
and Howie would never suspect that the regular beatings that I subjected
him to through grade school were retaliation for his father’s lack of customer
service skills. Lucky for me that farting
loudly in public was only a misdemeanor in our household.
I never did see the point of a jockstrap during my Little League career. It’s true that when used with a cup it would protect against potential damage caused by a bad-hop grounder or being struck by an inside pitch but my grade school rationale argued that bad-hops were solved with improved fielding skills and anyone who turned to face an inside pitch instead of turning away simply wasn’t cut out for sports. We were only asked on our first day of the season if we had them on so after that I left it at home in my drawer. As far as I was concerned a third grader needed a jock strap like a dead man needed an overcoat.
In Junior High they were required for gym class so after a
semester of that I found a way to avoid gym class altogether. Jockstraps weren’t required for playing the
French Horn in Orchestra and that replaced gym in my schedule. Score!
There was this one guy I remember, Jack, who was really
talented at mimicking voices, imitating animal sounds, ventriloquism,
beatboxing, the works. I don’t know if
he practiced it beforehand or just left his jockstrap at home but Jack
attempted to mimic the sound of a leg band snapping against skin but his plan
broke down when he choked on his chewing gum and made a croaking sound instead of a loud snap. He might have pulled it off if he hadn’t been
chewing gum and that was another thing.
That stopped Coach Gary in his tracks, and he said “Bend-and-reach,
Squirrel. You get three for that. One for not wearing protection, one for
trying to lie to me and one for chewing gum in class.” Jack didn’t try that again.
I felt my feet being massaged which was something I hadn’t
counted on. It was such a fine
sensation. “Post-op is good!”
Then my ankles and calves.
“Oh! Post-op is very good!”
Then my calves and knees.
“I like post-op. It’s the
best!”
When the massage got to my thighs, I had to see what was
going on. I opened my eyes and was
shocked to see the unfamiliar eyes of a nurse behind a surgical mask just two
feet away. She stopped abruptly sensing
my confusion, I suppose, and said, “I’m sorry”.
Dropping my eyes lower I tried to focus on something around my
thighs that she had been busy with. It
didn’t make sense to me. Damn
drugs. What’s going on? Finally, the realization of what it was came
to me along with the grim memories of childhood that flooded me with anger and
resentment.
With that the nurse stood up, apologized again, and let me manage
on my own. As I laid there looking at
that strangely twisted and truncated garment around my legs I thought of the
Book of Genesis where “The Lord made Cain a wanderer and a fugitive over the
earth, but set a mark upon him,……as wanderers must remain upon the earth, until
their countenance be filled with shame.”
Accepting my lot I pulled the Mark of Cain up into place and meekly asked if I could please go home.
What a
way to kill a fine buzz.